its four plus now, and i i got work after an couple of hours. so now i realised, alot of my friends are reading my blog huh, hahs. im supposed to be off on wed, but im helping my collegues cover his shift. well, more labour, more pay. four dollars per hour is a little,.. idk. hahs


recently, i caught up with a friend of mine who is in ns now. well, according to him, ns life seems not as stressed up as i thought to be. but of course, im not going to take so much medical leave as he would when im serving my ns, reason being i wanna be all buffed up when im out from ns. my stomach is giving me alot of problems nowadays, coupled with cough. argh for that. lucky for me, theres a number of pretty girls at my workplace, making working hours not as tiring and boring. but somehow, i missed my prevous job, though it had longer hours. argh, thats human nature, to have the best of both worlds. ha.


Wx, we have recently raised a fund to aid in your medical bills, and although its not of a big amount, hope it helps in letting you know there are alot of people out there who cares alot about you, so get well fast and soon alright? i know youre capable of it. i`ll be here waiting, for the day when i said we would smoke outside together.

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so, you found your way here huh. hahs. been coughing quite alot these few days, lucky my workload is not that hectic. been thinking about alot of things lately, and my mood is undeniably kinda affected. coughing puts me off from smoking, so im going to take this chance to quit smoking, for good. (pray hard i would) ha.


theres nothing i cant do, only things i dont wish to, same goes for leaving you. its something i wanna do for now, and im kinda sure im able to achieve it. take good care of yourself, dont always eat sweets. remember, we are fair now, we dont owe each other anything, any longer.
good times flies, and not long after, i might be enlisted for ns. three thumbs down for that. argh. been doing nothing much at home, normal rotting, and using com, once in a while.


WX, i almost couldnt hold back my tears when i visited you the other time. where is the manly, fierce wx i knew? revert back to your normal self soon alright? i know you can do it. nothing is gonna stand in your way of recovering isnt it? get well soon, and we would smoke outside, as many sticks as you want, like i promised. waiting for your recovery, Wx.

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and so, i had a change of job, now im working at GV at tamp. this job is undeniably easier than the prevous job i had, with the only disadv of lesser pay. i think i had fallen sick, coughing non stop these few days. the itchiness of my throat can be irritating, and now im gushing myself with plain water, hoping i could recover faster.


thanks for going to the hosp that day, and oh, i managed to see WX. he looks supposedly okay, just that he have slower reaction, and speaks like a child. hmm.. youre on the track of recovering, and hopefully you could be as healthy as before. i would visit you again when im off again this week alright? till then, please take care of yourself. its five plus now, and as much as i hate to, i needa go work le. so see ya earthlings.


WX, am i glad to see you revovering alot. please remain as cheerful as now, and hope you would recover soon, till then, i would visit you every week. bro, stay strong!

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so, i did not blog for like, so many days. hahas. today is thurs, and i managed to find a sp at just 1.3 k. hope i could get that amount by tml, with glen of course, and that bike is ours to keep. talk about moods changing people. i just talked on the phone with S.C, and we ended up hanging up the phone with none of us happy. good times don last? two hands up for that.

hope i could blog tomorrow with my bike pic la! argh. glen ar glen, better make sure you got the money ready erh, hahas. if not we can go hong kan liao. argh. girl, i miss you la. am i even in your mind, even for a sec? ha. i doubt so. fark it. hahs. nothing much to update for these few days, work and work, politics and politics. im looking for a better job le la. this job dont suit me AT ALL. ha.

WX, i wanted to visit you that day when i went to cgh, but you were already in another hosp. are you ok travelling the day you changed hosp? are you in any pain or whatsoever? rest assured, imma visit you as soon as my schedule allows it. youre getting better aint you? get on your trails and recover for good alright? please. i hope to see a healthy you looking at me the next time i see you. God Bless. WX, imy

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cool, a fascinating one week plus had passed. alot of things happened to me, and yet nothing elaborate enough for me to talk on. work occupied 9/10 of my time, and i had barely no time to breathe, not to mention finding my friends to slack. i miss those days, when we would sit togather and talk crap and can talk for hours. if my life is a v shaped valley, i might be on the better part of v. im slowly getting back on my feet. my leg is breaking from the long hours of standing, 10 hours, mean you. and im going to find a better prospect job if ever i could, and quit this. ha.


girl, tell me who am i to you? like seriously. i don know where i stand, how much i mean to you, and am i even in your mind, like how you are in mine. we would talk on phone on hours, we would message every single day, and yet i felt im drifting away from you. S.C, if ever you had a chance to see this, i would like to say, as much as i would like to hold on tight, if ever i let go on everything i wanted when you came along, im sorry. i did it with tears in my eyes.


WX, youre recovering aint you? i would like to thank god for answering my prayers, and kudos to you for getting back to the WX i knew. get well soon, i would be at your ward whenever im not working. concentrate on nothing but to recover alright? WX, wo zhi dao ni ke yi de, zhen ming ge shuo you ren kan, ni ke yi de.

Labels: when love loses its meaning

cool. i din blog for like days? time seems to fly when im working, i started work on tues, and in a blink of eye, its monday today. my great grandma just passed away, and im heading to her song ka in a few hours time. watched g-force, and its a nice show, with humurous character, and super teeny weeny cuteey cute hamster. but hold, they can do things human always dreamed of doing.


truckloads of thoughts is rushing through my mind at the moment, thinking about job, money, and S.C, if you follow every episode of my blog. ha! anyway, i din reply her for like two days already, and it seems i can move on with or without her. to me, loving her means giving her freedom and not straining her life. so, i decided not replying her might make me seem like a jerk right now, but everything will be worth it when she get her dream boy. on a side note, im watching blood ties soon! its such a nice suspense thriller show and captivated me when i readt the brief description of that show.



wx, get well soon please. its been close to a month since that incident happened isnt it? you still got your ns to complete and your dream to fufil. get well soon, to do what you have to do, alright? everytime when i pass inter i will look at that fateful place, that place where it changed the lives of many, and cant help think of you. literally, thought of you. im on my knees , finger crossed, eyes closed waiting for you to call my name and ask me get up. do it will you?

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cool, so i started work officially today. because the 1st day i start work, i worked for half day only. and i had my off on tues! so i got to work from wed to sun non stop. cool or what. sometimes, thing that happen abruptly can be so cool. my collegues are cool, and friendly. well, being polite is somewhat in our rule. like, HA. they provide good meals for staffs, so i think im going to be fatter, and my pecs are so going to be gone. argh. boo for that. hurray for im able to knock off in time! just so you know, i heard from the rest of my collegues that they normally knock off late. this is going to be the last job i have cause im not going to get myself fired or whatsoever.


girl, if you told me im the one, i would hold your hand so ever tightly and never let go. but i know its not going to be me isnt it. and oh, i saw this super hot girl while working la! her enticing eyes and femine like smile. my god. and her dressing sense is so up to date. no man would not drool at the sight of her, and i mean it, like OMG. ha. kay, enough of her. *fantasy girl* look who said enough. ha!

lie to me and say u love me alright? lie to me and say u miss me. it doesnt matter. really. even if its just a lie. its enough to last me a life time. i don need a thousand ily in a joking tone. i just need a serious ily from you. if i could go back in time, i would cherish you. and treat you like never other. but oh. going back in time is some stupid story stupid humans say to lie to their fucking self.

wx, get well please. a serious please with my knees on the ground. get back kicking, and safe. im glad your condition seems to be better. and yet, i hate myself. idk why. bro, wo zhen de hen xi wang ni kuai yi dian hao qi lai. hao bu hao?

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so, S.C came over to find me, and im grateful for that. saw a couples of friends, and i bet they must had thought im having a happy life huh, cool. think twice. obviously S.C doesnt know it, but today is the last day im meeting her. like this time, its for real. im working now, and this job, is easy but long hours and boring. argh for that. i got work tomorrow, so, im turning in soon, like real soon.


i hate it when im like a book to you, readable at a glance. i hate it when i know its impossible for me to linger in your mind and yet i tell myself miracles happen. i hate it when i would smile when i hear your voice. i hate it when i told myself to let go and yet i would message you the next day. i hate the way i love you even when i told myself true love doesnt exist. happily ever after is just so storybook. it DOES NOT exsit. i told S.C not to message or call me as i would be working, and i would call her when im free. but to me, that would never happen. let me apologise for lying to you alright? ha.


you said i seldom reply coldly, and you hate it when i get affected when someone calls or message you. seriously, does it matter? thanks for acting it does. at least i know you mind how i feel. key word of this paragraph. (acting like you care) its hard on you and killing me. give me a break alright?


if i could put a title and ending for my love for you, it would be. wishful thinking, and growing up in a hard way. a way no one would ever ask for.


wx, get well soon alright? im seriously missing you. remember the time i saw at tamp and you commented on my shirt? wake up and comment about my everything, will you? i know you would. its a matter of time. its ok if you need a little more rest. just know that you cant rest forever. get up and kicking soon. bro.

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