cool. its been some time since i blogged huh. two days i think. ha. nothing much happened these few days, slacking at sk, drinking a bit, and stuff. something unhappy happened between my friends today, but im sure it would never affect our friendship, i mean never. drinking is a blast, cut out the hang over. ha.


i get your hint, i know youre waiting for me to ask you out. forgive me alright? cause i don have the courage to do so. the more im in contact with you, the harder it is for me to let go. im being so cold so you would think im not as good as what you imagined. with so many people with the hot for you, im not confident of winning your heart. forgive my selfishness and low self esteem. i hate it too. everynight, i yearn to hear your voice and yet every minute i spend with you is the counting down to the moment when i have to leave you. you once told me, you never try you`d never know. as true as it might be, it will hurt me deeply if i were to hear a no from you. get it? i dont have the courage to try and neither do i have the confidence of being the one whom matters to you. maybe, being by your side is just not where i belong. the hardest way to let go is when you love that someon so deeply, but have to let go because your love is suffocating her and its starting to take its toil on you. you told me, everytime you felt contended with your life, someone had to intrude into your life. are you refering to me? ha. i think so. i seriously do. its 6.45 am now, and im not asleep. insomnia in progress i guess. i like the way i would keep quiet and wait for you to fall asleep over the phone, because i know i wont have much chance to do it again. S.C, ily.


wx, get well soon alright? i really hope to see you up and kicking again. youre still so young, with a promising future ahead of you. if i could have a wish right now, it would be non other than for you to get well soon. bro, kuai yi dian hao qi lai, hao ma? bu yao zai shui le. ni shui gou le. bro! get well, please.

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